Hello, Anxiety, my old friend...

Mood: guess...


Alright, we all experience it.  We all have different reasons for this way, but there's no denying it happens.  I wouldn't say I have a disorder or anything, but I feel anxious often enough to want to blog about it.

Mine is usually triggered when I think about money, driving, exams, and awkward situations.  Lately it's also triggered by certain songs, movies, and websites that remind me of the past.  My symptoms include shortness of breath/not being able to take a full breath, feeling lightheaded, jitters, sweaty palms, and chills.  Awesome, right?!

I don't think I'd ever felt this way until college.  I don't think I was able to breathe correctly for the first month or two of freshman year.  I went to the Health Center about it and they talked to me about the Counseling Center.  I started seeing one of the therapists, and it was pretty helpful.  Once I got comfortable at school (after about 2 months), I stopped going and things went back to normal.  Occasionally I felt anxious, but not to that degree (a constant feeling of dread/worry). 

I apologize for being a Debbie Downer and bringing this subject to the blog.  I just started feeling anxious and thought, "Why not write it out of your system?"  The way anxiety makes me feel is not fun.  I hate what makes me feel this way.  It really kind of makes me feel counter-productive (isn't it funny that i was "faux-productive" in my last post?). 

Well, I feel better now.  Not great, but better.  Thanks for listening (reading? if anyone is reading this...).  Much love.