Hello, Anxiety, my old friend...
Mood: guess...
Alright, we all experience it. We all have different reasons for this way, but there's no denying it happens. I wouldn't say I have a disorder or anything, but I feel anxious often enough to want to blog about it.
Mine is usually triggered when I think about money, driving, exams, and awkward situations. Lately it's also triggered by certain songs, movies, and websites that remind me of the past. My symptoms include shortness of breath/not being able to take a full breath, feeling lightheaded, jitters, sweaty palms, and chills. Awesome, right?!
I don't think I'd ever felt this way until college. I don't think I was able to breathe correctly for the first month or two of freshman year. I went to the Health Center about it and they talked to me about the Counseling Center. I started seeing one of the therapists, and it was pretty helpful. Once I got comfortable at school (after about 2 months), I stopped going and things went back to normal. Occasionally I felt anxious, but not to that degree (a constant feeling of dread/worry).
I apologize for being a Debbie Downer and bringing this subject to the blog. I just started feeling anxious and thought, "Why not write it out of your system?" The way anxiety makes me feel is not fun. I hate what makes me feel this way. It really kind of makes me feel counter-productive (isn't it funny that i was "faux-productive" in my last post?).
Well, I feel better now. Not great, but better. Thanks for listening (reading? if anyone is reading this...). Much love.




